O D D I T I E S

it’s very hard to describe your love for a pet to some people. i come across a lot of individuals who like their pets, but only a few rare ones who adore and unconditionally love them. i’ve had my little wolfgang (weezy) for about four and a half years. not nearly enough time to enjoy his shining presence. weezy’s always been a little slow, perpetually snotty, but his love and affection has always been unwavering. and the cat does not age!  he still looks like a kitten. constantly rolling around, stealing chips out of my hand, letting me dress him up. he’s the only cat i’ve met that isn’t terrified of the vaccuum cleaner or of ANY animal. in march, his snot/weezing behavior got worse and he was soon diagnosed with untreatable cancer of the sinuses. a large tumor has formed in the middle of his forehead, pushing and puffing his eyes apart to the point where he cannot see any more. the cancer has also eaten away the bridge of his nose and he can only breathe from his mouth, causing massive drooling. to see my poor baby undergo this disease is the most heartbreaking thing, because there is absolutely nothing that can be done for him. he has brought me and others so much joy; my only regret with him is that i didn’t take him to nursery homes or hospitals, because he truly has this remarkable charm to him. ask anyone who’s met him. he could have been the #1 therapy cat. and/or tv cat. he’s so fucking adorable.

the difficult and true trial of rationality has been deciding if we should euthanize him or let him slowly slip into an eternal slumber at home. honestly, i’m amazed he’s lasted this long—he’s a trooper. he has moments where he’s excited to eat, he runs down the stairs to greet people, and always seeks out the company of someone. but now, he’s started to hide. this was the point where i knew his suffering was becoming unbearable and it would be selfish to keep him any longer.  
i’m well aware that i’m describing weezy and his conditions as if he was a person, and that would totally freak some people out. but those of you who cherish your pets, i know you understand. 

weezy just turned five today and this is also my last night with him. 
i love you forever my little baby.