29 July 2013

Every day is an emotional roller coaster for me.  I can be crying one minute and then my face is dry the next minute.  I also know I'm not CRAZY but Jesus...it's wearing me down.

I know I'm not alone in this feeling; I know MANY college graduates are feeling this way. Second guessing why they went to such an expensive school...why did they major in theatre...who the fuck told them they had talent.

After this semester from hell, I don't feel very relieved.  I wasn't even that proud of myself for graduating. I could have gotten better grades.  I could've done more for my school/dept.

I have to be grateful for things like my health and love from others, but I can't help from freaking out every day.  I'm 21 and I can't keep relying on my parents (partially also because they're unreliable.)

It's so hard to pack because I feel like I should throw everything away but then I really won't have anything.  Ugh.


Okay I'm done.